Hello wonderful people,
Hope you guys are doing fab. I’ve been away for a bit on holiday. Was in the U.K for my Masters graduation which was lovely (except for the horrific weather; I’m quite sure it was never that bad while I was there) but I’m back to my wonderful naija town and very happy to be back. Anyways, it feels good to finally have time to write here. Had a lovely time with the parents; everytime I think I’ve learned all I need to know from them, they always give me more. It’s no longer about them giving me specific instruction or advice; these days I learn so much about life, parenting and marriage just by watching them. I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again: God blessed me with wonderful parents who accept all my quirks and love me anyway. I know for a fact that I was not an easy child at all but I’m glad they’re starting to see the fruits of the different kinds of investments they made in me. We still butt heads though but that’s another post for another day.
So I’ve had a couple of ideas on what to blog about (so watch this space) but there’s one I’ve been putting off for a while and it’s basically the major lesson I’ve learned in this new season of my life. I said before that I had been struggling with trying to balance this new job with other aspects of my life; family, friends, choir, exercise and most importantly, prayer. Now before I started work, I felt like I had finally conquered my prayer struggles (which I blogged about) and that I would never have to face it again (which I have come to understand is soooo not the case). So when I found myself facing the same issue again, I was heading towards depression street. See, I’m the kind of person that does not like to learn the same lesson twice cos it means (to me anyway) that the first time around was a waste of time and I absolutely hate wasting my time. Finding myself back in this place for something so important was very disturbing.
Looking back now, I understand why I needed to go through that process. You see, when I blocked like an hour and a half everyday to spend time with God in the mornings, it was great but I tended to spend time with God in my bedroom and then leave Him there and carry on with the rest of my day. Don’t get me wrong, it’s much better than not spending time with him at all but it’s also much better to be able to carry God’s presence with you wherever you go. A number of my friends who have walked the path I’m currently on (Eloxie, Agatha, Kiki) tried to explain this to me but I didn’t understand initially. I guess I had to experience it for myself. The day this revelation really hit me was when I read my Proverbs 31 woman devotional and it spoke about the classic verse of Psalms 91:1. I love the amplified version of this verse:
“He who dwells in the secret place of the most High shall remain fixed and stable under the shadow of the Almighty [Whose power no foe can withstand] – Psalm 91:1 (AMP)
Two things stood out to me in this verse: dwelling and remaining fixed and stable. See, I’ve read and heard this verse several times but I never really understood what it meant. I always had this picture of Elijah in the cave when he was running from Jezebel after he had killed the prophets of Baal. His location in those caves was a secret and God was present in the still small voice so there you have it (which I now understand is a tad ridiculous). In summary, that verse never really applied to my life cos I wasn’t on the run *shrug*. However, when that verse was broken down to me, it opened my eyes to the truth of carrying God ‘s presence where you go.
That secret place that the verse refers to is that place that can only be fully understood by you and God cos that secret place is your meeting place. It’s that place where your communicate and where the dynamics of your relationship are established and where they constantly evolve. It’s that place where you receive instruction and you have communion with Him. And when you continue to dwell in the place, it means that you spend more and more time in His presence. When you continue to dwell in that place, you feel Him wherever you go. It won’t even be enough for you to just block time in the morning to pray; you’ll find yourself talking to God in the shower, before you sleep, on the way to work, in the office. You’ll even understand the need to go into the loo for 5 minutes just to spend some time praying or actively focusing your thoughts on Him. Those are different ways of communing with God. When you do that, He begins to reveal more of Himself to you and you draw closer to Him in a way you didn’t know before.
It’s honestly a very beautiful thing to have with God. There are times when I actively focus my thoughts on Him just to make sure He’s still there and there’s that warm reassurance in my Spirit that I really do carry Him with me wherever I go and He’s right there with me. It reminds me of how I often look at myself in any mirror to make sure I still look the same way I did when I left the house (losing a bunch of weight will do that to you *covers face*) and I still look the same (thank God). I used to think that I had to wait to be in the “position” or “state” of prayer before I could pray but that is sooo not the case. You can definitely pray to God when you’re doing number 2 in the loo (I will confess to being guilty of that). Honestly people, God wants us to be real with Him and be able to talk to Him about anything anywhere.
So what am I saying today people? When you understand that secret place you carry within you where you and God reside and you continue to dwell there more and more each day, you will truly have the revelation that you are under the shadow of His presence. As that continues to happen, you will find that you’re a more stable person, not just in His presence but in your life in general; you’re not moved by the things that do or do not happen around you because you can go back to your secret place instantly and talk to God about it and He can choose to reveal His heart to you on the matter or just flood your heart with His peace. You’re less moved by your environment and you find yourself becoming more of an oasis of calm for the people around you. That’s the kind of person I’m interested in becoming and I know I’m well on my way. As I continue to abide in our secret place (mine and God’s), I can only become better and stronger…..so can you.
Peace and love,