Hope y’all are doing great. Sorry for the extra late post tonite, I got back home bone-tired and had decided not to blog today but once I switched off my lamp I started composing what I would have liked to talk about. So here I am :-). I won’t talk about much today, I just feel like sharing what my day was like. Hopefully, it’s interesting to someone and there’s a word for someone somewhere. Again, I want to say thank you to all you guys that continue to follow the blog. There have been 211 views of the blog since I started (five days ago). I don’t know what typical blog site statistics are but this definitely blows my mind. There’s someone in Ireland looking at the blog for goodness’ sake and I’m quite sure I don’t know anyone there. So thanks everyone; each view is a sign of support and it encourages me to continue writing.
Onto my day; I ran a few errands in the morning that didn’t allow me catch up on my sleep (since I started blogging, I’m in bed around 12ish and getting up to jog at 6.30 in the morning means I need to catch up on sleep after I shower and pray). I didn’t have time to pray before I left so I planned to pray once I got back home. When I got home, I had a conversation with Pastor Mo (who is meant to be my spiritual father but he’s more like my spiritual big brother cos he’s so cool) about how I haven’t seen him in a while. I told him that we had quite a few things to discuss. I was about to head out to his office when I remembered that I hadn’t prayed. Now, to be honest I was very close to leaving without praying but the Holy Spirit would not let me so I decided to give in and pray. While I was praying, I started to receive revelations on certain separate pieces of my life coming together. It’s difficult for me to put in words but I felt like God gave me a glimpse of my future. To give some background, I moved back to Nigeria from England at the end of September last year. The atmosphere was so different when I moved back and I could sense that God was calling me to leave certain things behind and step into new things. One of these areas is the church where I worship. Now people who know me (and they don’t even have to know me that well) know that I rep my church wherever I go. I’m proud to say I’m a TPH baby so the thought of me leaving was preposterous to me when I had just moved back. I guess God in His mercy knew that He would have to ease me into that idea. There were several other occasions where I could tell that I might have to leave but I just was not ready to deal with it.
I knew where God wanted me to move to and to be honest, TWB (The Waterbrook) is another expression of TPH (This Present House) so I wouldn’t be going far away. There was one main thing that kept holding me back from leaving and that was my membership in the choir and the worship team. Now, if you think I rep my church, then you don’t want to know how I talk about this choir. Remaining small, I for write Lagos Community Gospel Choir for my head. It is an absolute privilege to be part of such a talented and hard-working group of people. The thought of leaving was something I never wanted to seriously consider until today. Actually, the response to this blog was another piece of the puzzle that came together today to help me make my decision because of the response it’s gotten and the type of people I’ve been called to reach. There are a number of changes going on in TWB right now and I can see how I have a place there; it’s difficult to explain but trust me on this. Secondly, the kind of people God is calling me to reach are in TWB; most of them are in my age bracket while TPH caters to an older crowd. Finally, TPH is a church where I received a lot but the seasons have changed and God is calling me to start giving back. There is a lot of work to be done and I know for a fact that God has equipped me with the giftings and experiences to do what He needs done through me. So that’s basically it people
However, it’s not easy. Right after I made this decision and discussed with Pastor Mo, I had choir practice and it started to hit me that I would be leaving a lot behind. First of all, these people have been my family for the most [spiritually] important years of my life. They taught me to be expressive and to be comfortable with who I am. They unknowingly encouraged me not to be self-conscious and being a part of that family has shown me things about myself that I most likely would not have found out in any other context. I’m going to miss them badly and I’ll miss the atmosphere we created together. I started feeling down and a number of people noticed. I’ve spoken to one or two people about the move but it’s all hush-hush for now until I talk to the music director (I’m hoping he doesn’t read this blog, looool). I think God knew I needed some encouragement which is why we rehearsed “Moving forward” by Israel Houghton
I’m not going back, I’m moving ahead, I’m here to declare to you, my past is over. In you, all things are made new, surrendered my life to Christ. I’m moving, moving forward
You make all things new, yes You make all things new and I will follow You forward.
I listened to that song from a fresh perspective. You see, I always thought that the past they were referring to in that song was a past without Jesus, where we were still in sin. But hearing it today in light of my situation, I felt that it could also mean leaving a good past behind, a past season, to enter a new place in God. Once you have surrendered your life to Christ, you no longer make decisions for yourself. God, in His mercy, even prepared me first but I know that I will not be given such leeway in the future. God is a God of renewal. He makes all things new; even the things that we think are still new, He makes newer.
Seasons change people and we need to be able to go with it so that we can remain useful to God. I know for sure that a season of preparation is over in my life and a new season of work is about to start. It’s time for me to put my hand to the plough and be a useful labourer in this season of harvest. I’m moving forward people, and it may not be pleasant (actually, not “may not”, “is not” sounds more like truth) but it has to be done and if there’s one thing I know for sure about God, it’s the fact that there is always a blessing for total obedience. I would even go so far to say that it’s a spiritual principle.
Alright guys, that’s it from me today. My eyes are starting to close and I need to be up to jog tomorrow. As usual, I look forward to your comments and questions and please keep passing the word about this blog along.